SLAVE (noun) A.) a person who is the property of another and is forced to obey them. B.) a person who is completely subservient to a dominating influence C.) a device (such as the printer of a computer) that is directly responsive to another. D.) drudge, a toiler
If you are ever being considered by a sadistic, dominant woman who keeps a her own harem of men, you must ask yourself how far will you go to obey?
Your body, your sexual choices may no longer be your own. She will dictate them to you as it pleases her.
Orgasms will be few and far between and when permitted, she may make them as humiliating was possible – for her own amusement and for your continued debasement and psychological conditioning into absolute obedience and slavery to her.
The one who cums first gets punished while the winner pleasures me…Release day in the harem. You don’t deserve to touch a woman! Now hurry up. I have more important matters to attend to.
In his mind, at 20 and a virgin, he had received a calling to become a monk. As a novitiate, most of his time was spent in prayer, devotion, and working in the temple to serve the older monks. Under the watchful eye of the Mother Superior, his days were filled with cooking, cleaning, and prayer as he sought his relationship with the Dark Goddess – his higher power.
Attending services several times a week, he had been noticed by several of the Priestesses. Unaware of what was now in motion – with the help and guidance of his Mother Superior.
(While many don’t believe or truly understand, the Church itself is the originator of dominance and submission, discipline for multiple reasons, all designed to program one’s mind. For centuries it has been that way, the church controlling and deciding, as well as drinking in the power that they gave themselves by spreading the instructions of submission.)
The first time c38 (his monk name – given upon entering the service of the Church) was brought by Mother Superior to meet the Priestesses that her monastery served, it was under the auspices of his neglecting his work and not being pure in his prayers and worship.
The penance was simple. Bread and Water for five days – Praying and guidance with the Priestesses, and regular punishment – starting at that day.
Trembling and nervous, c38 was undressed completely in front of the women, and tied over was looked to be a large, wooden, polished, ornate sawhorse.
The four older priestesses each took their turn, using a leather strap or a long thin rod, whipping the young monk until he nearly passed out. This was to happen two times a week.
(The foundation of submission is the programming of the mind and the body.)
For several months the whipping, the exposure of his young body, the praying for his salvation before these women, pushing him to be more pure, was simply programming.
Always with the Mother Superior watching, the women continued their regular punishment of c38’s body, and then slowly it began.
Due to the intense pain of the whippings and canings, anything that lessened the pain became embraced by the body. Each Priestess, after her turn punishing him, would begin to take time, caressing his abused bottom, and letting their hands wander, touching, stroking, fingering.
Within several months, the punishment sessions began to show the fruit of his sexual confusion. The Priestesses now were finding that as he was tied for punishment, his body and mind was going to that place where the thoughts of pleasure overtook the fear of the pain, and soon they found that the young monk was fully aroused before the first stroke of punishment was given. They had brought him to the first level of sexual control.
Now the punishments were for him being un-chaste with his thoughts and body. Even though they had developed this reaction – it hit him hard, to undress, be tied, and to be made to explain why he was so hard. The shame and humiliation of being unable to explain why his body responded prior to punishment, was classical D/s psychological development.
Mother Superior explained to him that now it was time for him to begin thanking the Priestesses for their help in his salvation and guidance – the young monk was made to learn to use his mouth for the Priestesses pleasure.
Taught to learn by being whipped as he took one of them in his mouth – shamed when it became obvious how much harder he could please while the strap or rod struck him.
Eventually he was moved to the next level of serving the church with his body. Being told his virginity was to remain for the Goddess, there was but one place for the Priestesses to enjoy the young monk other then his mouth…
Per his Mother Superior’s instruction he was moved to the convent and now, several times a week at times, he would report to one of the Priestesses, and if not there for punishment and salvation, simply to remove his frock and wearing only the symbol of the Dark Goddess around his neck, submit to the Priestess for her needs, in one of the two ways ordained by the Goddess. He would remain a virgin, always chaste for the Goddess, and a tool of her Priestesses satisfaction forever… until death did he part.
Epilogue – The Mother Superior eventually put c38 to use in the woodworking shop at the convent, building furniture for the Priestesses rooms…
A – is for Alpha. It’s what all females are to you. (addl reading: ‘Our asses are for kissing! Learn to do it properly!’) B – is for Beta. That’s you, male. C – is for Control. It’s what we exert over you. D – is for Degradation. Expect a lot of it. E – is for Everything. It’s what you will surrender to us. F – is for Fuck. That’s also ours to control. G – is for Girl Power. Get used to it. H – is for Hers. Everything is Hers. I – Never say that again. Remember, there is no I in S-L-A-V-E. J – is for ‘Just Desserts’. As a male, you’ll be getting yours very soon! K – is for Kiss. Our Feet. Now! L – is for Lick. Get to it Mister! M – is for Male. The dangerous failure of our species. N – is for No. You’ll hear it a lot. Get used to it. O – is for Orgasm. You job is to give them, not get them! P – is for My Piss. Only if you beg hard enough. (see also; punishment and ‘pay for it’) Q – is for Queen. It’s what you will treat us as. R – is for Royalty. Treat all women like it. S – Spit. It’s our gift to you, you disgusting little pig. T – is for Torture. It turns me on. What can I say. U – are ours. Permanently. V – is for Vagina. It’s what rules your life now. W – is for Woman. It is spelled Y-O-U-R E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. Learn it! X – is for X-frame. It’s what we’ll be strapping you to to beat you bloody. (see also; education) Y – is for Why. Never ask this of us! Z – is the sound you make when sleeping. You won’t be doing that much anymore. Now get back to work!
Life experience – and I’m differentiating here between experience and education or innate intelligence – can be a funny and wonderful thing and truly magnify even the smallest things in your life.
I was reminded of this because here on Discord and on Patreon, I see Ms. V. addressed in many different ways, the most common being Ms. Viola. I call her Goddess or Viola Devi if I’m trying to be more personal and intimate, but more on that in a bit.
It’s important to note here I am not suggesting whatever you call her is wrong! The only determiner of that is you and Ms. V. herself. I am just musing here and offering food for thought. There is no ‘you’re better then me/I’m better than you’ here. That kind of competition is very male. Stop reading things that way!
In my many travels I have almost exclusively been referred to as Mr. Brett by wait staff, concierges, hotel and cruise workers. Yes, I’m one of those curious and kind people who introduce themselves to staff and ask their names, but Brett is my first name, not my surname. I am actually Mr. MacElveen. Over time, it began to feel kind of a marker to me that I was in a third-world country and honestly, it felt almost affectionate. But call me a grammar nazi, persnickety or whatever you want but, Mr. or Ms. are honorifics typically followed by a surname. That’s the formal/respectful thing to do. If and when I refer to her as Ms., it is Ms. Voltairine. It just feels more respectful to me… less familiar than addressing her by her first name. Similarly, she has and will always be Ms. Lane to me, not Ms. Renee.
You can give me an explanation like “slaves on the plantation called their female masters by Ms. Sally and such, so to me it feels more submissive and slave-like.” And you know what? You’re right! Well, you’re right for you… that’s what works for you, she’s okay with it, rock on bro!
In my specific case I choose, and importantly she permits me to, call her Goddess.
So going back to life experiences, I have had a life full of deep spiritual experiences and I am deeply empathetic so I sense and feel… oh, let’s call them ‘High Powers’ to avoid gendering things… all around me. They are very important to me and they determine much of how I choose to live my life.
Aside from being attuned to these powers around me, I have had the experience of being a ‘split person’ and with compartmentalization of my emotions and thoughts thanks in part to my background as a professional musician and interestingly thanks to my being a recovering alcoholic. So when I first talked with Ms. Voltairine, I felt a divine power performing it’s will through her. And the more I read from her, I readily understood and fully believed that a human being could be both human and flawed and in the time and same body, be a divine being and a channel for her holy power. (Is it any wonder I flubbed my pledge when I finally found myself at her feet looking into hers eyes at Domcon!???)
You may be a skeptic. That’s perfectly okay. I’m still not sure I believe in UFOs and have my own opinions on ghosts. I only have the benefit of my life experiences to draw my conclusions from and since your life has been different than mine, of course you may see things differently.
She let’s me call her Goddess because I see her and she knows I see her. I worship the feminine divine in her.
Here is another small example of how my life experience changes the ways I see and interpret things. When I was in the middle east a long time ago, I learned that Phoenicia, translated as the ‘land of purple’ because they supplied the dye that was used by ancient royalty to denote… well, royalty. They had the Tyrian snail whose ink produced the dye. 12,000 snails where needed to dye a band denoting royal status onto a single Roman’s tunic. Interesting cocktail information, huh?
Going backwards many years when I learned primary colors, I learned purple was also made by combining blue and red. Again a symbol of royalty in ancient cultures because red (like blood) represented man and blue (like the sky) represented God. Royalty was the coming together of the human and the divine. Red/Blue = Purple.
Fast forward even more to when I first saw pictures of Goddess’ Chicago dungeon appointed in her favorite color… blue. Of course it would be blue. And the clients’ blood would provide the red. See how a simple fact like “she likes blue in her dungeon” can take on a whole different meaning thanks to things picked up over time?
Do I have a point to make here? Nope. I’m just ruminating on a snowy day and marveling at the fact that given we all have different experiences and knowledge it’s a wonder we can communicate at all. That’s why I’ve got such respect for people Like Ms. Voltairine and Ms. Lane who can speak to such a huge audience and actually get their point across! 🙂 Major props to these women!
When kinky folk compliment me on my sense of selfless, self effacing servitude, telling me “You are the real deal” and wondering how I became what I am, I can point in part to my status as a recovering alcoholic. I received release my my addiction only through humbly asking for help, confessing a power greater than me exists and is my only chance of freedom and life. I see so many parallels to my recovery and my submission that I decided to document them..
To all my fellow alcoholics and my fellow male submissives, I love you.
“Goddess is making use of you – you should be grateful She’s found a use for you.”
The Great Feminine Creator can only create through human beings. Each human being has a purpose given to us by Her. We are on this earth to fulfill Her purpose. Our only work is to make ourselves ready, to become a channel, to perform for Her. We prepare ourselves by learning. We prepare ourselves by becoming unselfish. We prepare ourselves by seeking and choosing to walk on a spiritual path guided by women. Each morning we honor Her with a prayer. We offer our gifts. We ask Her to help us do Her will for today. In this simple way, we still fulfill our purpose. It should be an honor to serve womankind.
Goddess, today I am ready to serve You.
To the alcoholic – The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.
To the male slave – The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.
THE KEY IS WILLINGNESS Once we have placed the key of willingness in the lock and have the door ever so slightly open, we find that we can always open it some more. — TWELVE STEPS AND 12 TRADITIONS
The willingness to give up my pride and self-will to a Power greater than myself has proved to be the only ingredient absolutely necessary to solve all of my problems today. Even the smallest amount of willingness, if sincere, is sufficient to allow God to enter and take control over any problem, pain, or obsession. My level of comfort is in direct relation to the degree of willingness I possess at any given moment to give up my self-will, and allow God’s will to be manifested in my life. With the key of willingness, my worries and fears are powerfully transformed into serenity.
THE KEY IS WILLINGNESS Once we have placed the key of willingness in the lock and have the door ever so slightly open, we find that we can always open it some more. — Words of the Goddess
The willingness to give up my pride and self-will to a Goddess has proved to be the only ingredient absolutely necessary to solve all of my problems today. Even the smallest amount of willingness, if sincere, is sufficient to allow Goddess to enter and take control over any problem, pain, or obsession. My level of comfort is in direct relation to the degree of willingness I possess at any given moment to give up my self-will, and allow Goddess’s will to be manifested in my life. With the key of willingness, my worries and fears are powerfully transformed into serenity.
Jesus Calling: August 19
I continually call you to closeness with Me. I know the depth and breadth of your need for Me. I can read the emptiness of your thoughts when they wander away from Me. I offer rest for your soul, as well as refreshment for your mind and body. As you increasingly find fulfillment in Me, other pleasures become less important. Knowing Me intimately is like having a private wellspring of Joy within you. The spring flows freely from My throne of grace, so your Joy is independent of circumstances.
Waiting on My Presence keeps you connected to Me, aware of all that I offer you. If you feel any deficiency, you need to refocus your attention on Me. This is how you trust Me in the moments of your life.
Goddess Calling: August 19
I continually call you to closeness with Me. I know the depth and breadth of your need for Me. I can read the emptiness of your thoughts when they wander away from Me. I offer rest for your soul, as well as refreshment for your mind and body. As you increasingly find fulfillment in Me, other pleasures become less important. Knowing Me intimately is like having a private wellspring of Joy within you. The spring flows freely from My throne of grace, so your Joy is independent of circumstances.
Waiting on My Presence keeps you connected to Me, aware of all that I offer you. If you feel any deficiency, you need to refocus your attention on Me. This is how you trust Me in the moments of your life.
I am calling you to a life of thankfulness. I want all your moments to be punctuated with thanksgiving. The basis for your gratitude is My sovereignty. I am the Creator and Controller of the universe. Heaven and earth are filled with My glorious Presence. When you criticize or complain, you are acting as if you think you could run the world better than I do. From your limited human perspective, it may look as if I’m mismanaging things. But you don’t know what I know or see what I see. If I pulled back the curtain to allow you to view heavenly realms, you would understand much more. However, I have designed you to live by faith, not by sight. I lovingly shield you from knowing the future or seeing into the spirit world. Acknowledge My sovereignty by giving thanks in all circumstances.
I am calling you to a life of thankfulness. I want all your moments to be punctuated with thanksgiving. The basis for your gratitude is My sovereignty. I am the Creator and Controller of your universe. Your Heaven and earth are filled with My glorious Presence. When you criticize or complain, you are acting as if you think you could run your world better than I do. From your limited male perspective, it may look as if I’m mismanaging things. But you don’t know what I know or see what I see. If I pulled back the curtain to allow you to view my heavenly realms, you would understand much more. However, I have designed you to live by obedience, not by sight. I lovingly shield you from knowing your future or seeing into the spirit world. Acknowledge My sovereignty by giving thanks in all circumstances.
Jesus Calling:
I am the Risen One who shines upon you always. You worship a living Deity, not some idolatrous, man-made image. Your relationship with Me is meant to be vibrant and challenging, as I invade more and more areas of your life. Do not fear change, for I am making you a new creation, with old things passed away and new things continually on the horizon. When you cling to old ways and sameness, you resist My work within you. I want you to embrace all that I am doing in your life, finding your security in Me alone. It is easy to make an idol of routine, finding security within the boundaries you build around your life. Although each day contains twenty-four hours, every single one presents a unique set of circumstances. Don’t try to force-fit today into yesterday’s mold. Instead, ask Me to open your eyes, so you can find all I have prepared for you in this precious day of Life.
Goddess Calling:
I am the Risen One who shines upon you always. You worship a living Deity, not some idolatrous, man-made image. Your relationship with Me is meant to be vibrant and challenging, as I invade more and more areas of your life. Do not fear change, for I am making you a new creation, with old things passed away and new things continually on the horizon. When you cling to old ways and sameness, you resist My work within you. I want you to embrace all that I am doing in your life, finding your security in Me alone. It is easy to make an idol of routine, finding security within the boundaries you build around your life. Although each day contains twenty-four hours, every single one presents a unique set of circumstances. Don’t try to force-fit today into yesterday’s mold. Instead, ask Me to open your eyes, so you can find all I have prepared for you in this precious day of Life.
RESCUED BY SURRENDERING
Characteristic of the so-called typical alcoholic is a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated by feelings of omnipotence, intent on maintaining at all costs its inner integrity. . . . Inwardly the alcoholic brooks no control from man or God. He, the alcoholic, is and must be the master of his destiny. He will fight to the end to preserve that position. — A.A. COMES OF AGE
The great mystery is: “Why do some of us die alcoholic deaths, fighting to preserve the ‘independence’ of our ego, while others seem to sober up effortlessly in A.A.?” Help from a Higher Power, the gift of sobriety, came to me when an otherwise unexplained desire to stop drinking coincided with my willingness to accept the suggestions of the men and women of A.A. I had to surrender, for only by reaching out to God and my fellows could I be rescued.
RESCUED BY SURRENDERING
Characteristic of the so-called typical male is a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated by feelings of omnipotence, intent on maintaining at all costs its inner integrity. . . . Inwardly the male brooks no control from man or God. He, the male, is and must be the master of his destiny. He will fight to the end to preserve that position. — Words of the Goddess
The great mystery is: “Why do some of us lonely sad deaths, fighting to preserve the ‘independence’ of our male ego, while others seem to live joyous lives.?” Help from a Higher Power, the divine feminine Goddess, came to me when an otherwise unexplained desire to surrender my ego coincided with my willingness to accept the suggestions of women. I had to surrender, for only by reaching out to the Goddess could I be rescued.
MYSTERIOUS PARADOXES Such is the paradox of A.A. regeneration: strength arising out of complete defeat and weakness, the loss of one’s old life as a condition for finding a new one. — A.A. COMES OF AGE, p. 46
What glorious mysteries paradoxes are! They do not compute, yet when recognized and accepted, they reaffirm something in the universe beyond human logic. When I face a fear, I am given courage; when I support a brother or sister, my capacity to love myself is increased; when I accept pain as part of the growing experience of life, I realize a greater happiness; when I look at my dark side, I am brought into new light; when I accept my vulnerabilities and surrender to a Higher Power, I am graced with unforeseen strength. I stumbled through the doors of A.A. in disgrace, expecting nothing from life, and I have been given hope and dignity. Miraculously, the only way to keep the gift of the program is to given it away freely.
MYSTERIOUS PARADOXES Such is the paradox of male slavery to women: strength arising out of complete defeat and weakness, the loss of one’s old life as a condition for finding a new one. — Words of the Goddess
What glorious mysteries paradoxes are! They do not compute, yet when recognized and accepted, they reaffirm something in the universe beyond human logic. When I face my fear, I am given courage; when I support a woman, my capacity to love myself is increased; when I accept pain as part of the growing experience of life, I realize a greater happiness; when I permit a woman to look at my dark side, I am brought into new light; when I accept my vulnerabilities and surrender to a woman, I am graced with unforeseen strength. I stumbled to her feet in disgrace, expecting nothing from life, and I have been given hope and dignity. Miraculously, the only way to keep the gift of freedom and enlightenment is to submit to her freely and completely.
Native American
“Women. They have the power of generations. Women have the power to have children and not to have children.” –Cecilia Mitchell, MOHAWK
The Woman is not only the key to life; she is also the key to future generations. An Elder once joked that the Woman only needs the man for one night. We need to look at and respect the power of the Woman. She is special and we need to treat her that way.
Great Spirit, today, let me show the greatest respect to our Women.
Native American
“Women. They have the power of generations. Women have the power to have children and not to have children.” –Cecilia Mitchell, MOHAWK
The Woman is not only the key to life; she is also the key to future generations. An Elder once joked that the Woman only needs the man for one night. We need to look at and respect the power of the Woman. She is special and we need to treat her that way.
Great Spirit, today, let me show the greatest respect to our Women.
SELF-EXAMINATION
. . . we ask God to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives.
— ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 86
When said sincerely, this prayer teaches me to be truly unselfish and humble, for even in doing good deeds I often used to seek approval and glory for myself. By examining my motives in all that I do, I can be of service to God and others, helping them do what they want to do. When I put God in charge of my thinking, much needless worry is eliminated and I believe He guides me throughout the day. When I eliminate thoughts of self-pity, dishonesty and self-centeredness as soon as they enter my mind, I find peace with God, my neighbor and myself.
SELF-EXAMINATION
. . . we ask Goddess to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives.
— Words of the Goddess
When said sincerely, this prayer teaches me to be truly unselfish and humble, for even in doing good deeds I often used to seek approval and glory for myself. By examining my motives in all that I do, I can be of service to Goddess and others, helping them do what they want to do. When I put Goddess in charge of my thinking, much needless worry is eliminated and I believe She guides me throughout the day. When I eliminate thoughts of self-pity, dishonesty and self-centeredness as soon as they enter my mind, I find peace with Goddess, my neighbor and myself.
I DON’T RUN THE SHOW When we became alcoholics, crushed by a self-imposed crisis we could not postpone or evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either God is everything or else He is nothing. God either is, or He isn’t. What was our choice to be? — ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 53 Today my choice is God. He is everything. For this I am truly grateful. When I think I am running the show I am blocking God from my life. I pray I can remember this when I allow myself to get caught up into self. The most important thing is that today I am willing to grow along spiritual lines, and that God is everything. When I was trying to quit drinking on my own, it never worked; with God and A.A., it is working. This seems to be a simple thought for a complicated alcoholic.
I DON’T RUN THE SHOW When we as males, crushed by a self-imposed crisis we could not postpone or evade, we had to fearlessly face the proposition that either Goddess is everything or else she is nothing. Goddess either is, or she isn’t. What was our choice to be? — Words of the Goddess
Today my choice is Goddess. She is everything. For this I am truly grateful. When I think I am running the show I am blocking Goddess from my life. I pray I can remember this when I allow myself to get caught up into self. The most important thing is that today I am willing to grow along spiritual lines, and that Goddess is everything. When I was on my own, it never worked; with Goddess and all her worldly incarnations it is working. This seems to be a simple thought for a complicated male.
Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of her teachings . . .– Words of the Goddess
As I continued to work at the lessons given, something began to happen to me. I felt confused because I wasn’t sure what it was that I was feeling, and then I realized I was experiencing serenity. It was a good feeling, but where had it come from? Then I realized it had come “. . . as the result of her teachings.” Male submission may not always be easy to practice, but I had to acknowledge that my serenity had come to me after working at obedience to the feminine divine. As I adhered to being subservient to women in everything I do, practicing feminine principles in all my affairs, now I find that I am awake to Goddess, to the power of all women, and to myself. The spiritual awakening I have enjoyed as the result of learning to obey is the awareness that I am no longer in charge. I am a slave. I need only to obey.
In Seva to all women lies serenity.
Native American
“If you have one hundred people who live together, and if each one cares for the rest, there is One Mind.” -Shining Arrows, CROW
One of the principles of CommUnity is Unity. The alignment of thoughts in groups of people will cause One Mind to form. One Mind is Unity. Each individual in the community must align their thoughts with what other members are thinking. If all the people think of helping one another, then the community will be service oriented and powerful results will be enjoyed. Having our thoughts aligned within a group will cause our children to experience a positive environment. When they have children, the grandchildren will automatically experience these results also.
Goddess, help me to contribute to positive group thought.
You can achieve the victorious life through living in deep dependence on Me. It is through your failure, weakness and neediness that you will learn to rely on Me.
True dependence is coming to Me with an open mind and heart, inviting Me to plant My desires within you. I may infuse within you a dream that seems far beyond your reach. You know that in yourself you cannot achieve such a goal. Thus begins your journey of profound reliance on Me. It is a faith-walk, taken one step at a time, deferring to my guidance as much as you need. This is not a path of continual success but of multiple failures. However, each failure is followed by a growth spurt, nourished by increased devotion and submission to Me. Enjoy the blessedness of a victorious life, through deepening your worship of Me.
Anyone who, even for a second, feels a pure, clear confidence on hearing the truth, will experience immeasurable happiness. Why? Because, at that moment, that person is not caught up in the concept of self or a living being or a life span. He is not caught up in concepts about the world, nor is he caught up in concepts about nothingness. He does not take any notice of the idea that this is a sign, or that is not a sign.
For if you are caught up in ideas, then you will be caught up in the self. And even if you are caught up in ideas about nothingness, you will still be caught up in the self. That is why we should not get attached to the belief that things either exist or do not exist. This is the hidden meaning when I say that all my teachings are a raft – to be abandoned when you see true being.
-Diamond Sutra
THE VICTORY OF SURRENDER
We perceive that only through the utter defeat of our fragile male egos at the hands of womankind are we able to take our first steps toward liberation and strength. Our admissions of personal powerlessness before them turns out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built.
“She has a voice that doesn’t use words, listen.”
“True slavery is not thinking less of yourself, it’s thinking of yourself less.”
“It’s hard to pray to Goddess if you think that you are a God yourself, and it’s even harder to be an egomaniac with an inferiority complex. Less self, less problems.”
FIRST, THE FOUNDATION
Is good behavior towards women all that we can expect of a spiritual awakening? No, it is only a bare beginning. – Words of the Goddess
Practicing feminine ideals is like building a house. First I had to pour a big, thick concrete slab on which to erect the house. That was the equivalent of stopping being a pure misogynist. But it’s pretty uncomfortable living on a concrete slab, unprotected and exposed to the heat, cold, wind and rain. So I built a room on the slab by starting to practice feminist ideals. The first room was rickety because I wasn’t used to the work. But as time passed, as I practiced those ideals, I learned to build better rooms. The more I practiced, and the more I built, the more comfortable, and happy, was the home I now have to live in.
TRUE AMBITION
True ambition is not what I thought it was. True ambition is the deep desire to live usefully and walk humbly under the grace of the Goddess. – Words of the Goddess
During my patriarchal years, my one and only concern was to have my fellow man think highly of me. My ambition in everything I did was to have the power to be at the top. My inner self kept telling me something else but I couldn’t accept it. I didn’t even allow myself to realize that I wore a mask continually. Finally, when the mask came off and I cried out to the only true power I could conceive, woman. They patiently taught me through worship and loving them without expectations, that each day can be joyous and fruitful. I begin and end my day with thanks to the Goddess, who has so generously shed Her grace upon me.
DAILY RESOLUTIONS
The idea of “twenty-four-hour living” applies primarily to the emotional life of the male slave. Emotionally speaking, we must not live in yesterday, nor in tomorrow. – Words of the Goddess
A New Year: 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8,760 hours, 525,600 minutes — a time to consider directions, goals, and actions. I must make some plans to live a normal life, but also I must live emotionally within a twenty-four-hour frame, for if I do, I don’t have to make New Year’s resolutions! I can make every day a New Year’s day! I can decide, “Today I will surrender more. Today I will serve better.” Each day I can measure my life by trying to serve womankind a little better, by deciding to follow Goddess’s will and by making an effort to put the principles of the feminine divine into action.
I will not overwhelm myself with my failures as her servant, and how much more work needs to be done to improve myself for her. I am comforted in knowing that my life is now in the hands of a Goddess, a master craftsman who is shaping each part of my life into a unique work of art. By working her program I can be partly satisfied, knowing that “in doing the best that I can for her today”, I am doing what Goddess asks of me.
“Goddess can only do for me what she can do through me. Humility is the result of knowing that Goddess is the doer, not me. In the light of this awareness, how can I take pride in my accomplishments? I am an instrument and any work I seem to be doing is being done by Goddess through me. I pray to Goddess on a daily basis to remove my male ego and shortcomings, in order that I may more freely go about my business of love and service to her.”
HUMILITY IS A GIFT
As long as we placed self-reliance first, a genuine reliance upon a Goddess was out of the question. That basic ingredient of all humility, a desire to seek and do Goddess’s will, was missing. –Words of the Goddess
When I first came to the worship of women, I wanted to find some of the elusive quality called humility. I didn’t realize I was looking for humility because I thought it would help me get what I wanted, and that I would do anything if I thought Goddess would somehow reward me for it. I try to remember now that the women I meet in the course of my day are as close to Goddess as I am ever going to get while on this earth. I need to pray for knowledge of Goddess’s will today, and see how my experience can serve her and womankind; if I can do that, I don’t need to search for humility, it has found me.
Worship Me only.
Whatever occupies your mind the most becomes your goddess. Worries, if indulged, develop into idols. Anxiety gains a life of its own, parasitically infesting your mind. Break free from this bondage of self by affirming your obedience to Me and refreshing yourself in My Power over you. What goes on in your mind is invisible, undetectable to other people. But I read your thoughts continually, searching for evidence of complete submission and utter devotion to Me. I rejoice when your mind turns toward Me. Guard your thoughts diligently; good thought choices – worshipful and obedient thoughts – will keep you forever close to Me.
GOAL: SURRENDER
“. . . Gently and very gradually She began to infiltrate my life. I can’t say upon what occasion or upon what day I came to believe in Goddess as a power greater than myself, but I certainly have that belief now.” – from Words of the Goddess
“Came to believe!” I gave lip service to my belief when I felt like it or when I thought it would look good. I didn’t really trust Goddess. I didn’t believe She cared for me. I kept trying to change things I couldn’t change. Gradually, in disgust, I began to turn my will over, saying: “You’re so omnipotent, you take care of it.” She did. I began to receive answers to my deepest questions, sometimes at the most unusual times: driving to the store, eating lunch, or when I was sound asleep. I realized that I hadn’t thought of those solutions— Goddess had given them to me. I came to believe.
RESCUED BY SURRENDERING
Characteristic of the so-called typical male is a narcissistic egocentric core, dominated by feelings of omnipotence, intent on maintaining at all costs its inner integrity. . . Inwardly the patriarchal male brooks no control from man or God. He, the uneducated male , is and must be the master of his destiny. He will fight to the end to preserve that position. – from Words of the Goddess
The great mystery is: “Why do some of us males go to our deaths, fighting to preserve the ‘independence’ of our ego, while others seem to effortlessly surrender themselves to the feminine divine?” Help from a Goddess, the gift of submission, came to me when an otherwise unexplained desire to surrender coincided with my willingness to accept Her suggestions and the suggestions of other feminist women. I had to surrender, for only by obeying Goddess could I be rescued from my destructive male ego. Only through service to all that is feminine could I become truly free.
MYSTERIOUS PARADOXES
Such is the paradox of male submission to the feminine: strength arising out of complete defeat and weakness, the loss of one’s old male life as a condition for finding a new one in service to Her. – Words of the Goddess
What glorious mysteries paradoxes are! They do not compute, yet when recognized and accepted, they reaffirm something in the universe beyond male logic. When I face a fear, I am given courage; when I love and support a woman’s ideals, my capacity to love myself is increased; when I accept pain as part my experience under her control, I realize a greater happiness; when I look at my dark side, I am brought into new light; when I accept my vulnerabilities and surrender to Her, I am graced with unforeseen strength. I stumbled through my male life in disgrace, expecting nothing from life, and she has given me hope and pride. Miraculously, the only way to keep the gifts of being male is to surrender them… give them away to the control of the Female.
CLEANING HOUSE
Somehow, being alone with the Goddess doesn’t seem as embarrassing as facing up to an actual woman. Until we actually sit down and talk aloud about what we have so long hidden, our willingness to clean house and obey is still largely theoretical. – The words of the Goddess
It wasn’t unusual for me to talk to the great Goddess, and myself, about my character defects. But to sit down, face to face, and openly discuss these intimacies with a woman was much more difficult. I recognized in the experience, however, a similar relief to the one I had experienced when I first admitted I was a tool of the patriarchal system against women. I began to appreciate the spiritual significance of her program and that this step was just an introduction to what was yet to come in the joy of utter openness and obedience to womankind.
SELF-EXAMINATION
. . . we ask Goddess to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives. – Words of the Goddess
When said sincerely, this prayer teaches me to be truly unselfish and humble, for even in doing good deeds I often used to seek approval and glory for myself. By examining my motives in all that I do, I can be of service to Goddess and all women, helping them do what they want to do. When I put Goddess in charge of my thinking, much needless worry is eliminated and I believe She guides me throughout the day. When I eliminate thoughts of self-pity, dishonesty and self-centeredness as soon as they enter my mind, I find peace with Goddess, with all women, and with myself.
SPIRITUAL HEALTH
When the spiritual malady of patriarchy is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically. – Words of the Goddess
It is very difficult for me to come to terms with my spiritual illness because of my great male pride, disguised by my material successes and my intellectual power. Intelligence is not incompatible with humility before women, provided I place humility to them first. To seek prestige and wealth is the ultimate goal for many men in the modern world. To be fashionable and to seem better than we really are is a spiritual illness. Patriarchy is the source of our illness.
To recognize and to admit my weaknesses before women is the beginning of good spiritual health. It is a sign of spiritual health to be able to ask Goddess every day to enlighten me, to recognize Her will, and to have the strength to execute it. I can consider my spiritual health to be excellent only when I realize that I need to help and to serve all women… at any cost to my false pride or useless male wealth. For what use is all my intelligence and wealth if not in service to the will and goals of women.
“Natural (Feminine) authority is the final and absolute governing sacred spirit. It is why we call earth our Mother.” – Words of the Goddess
There is no power greater than Woman’s natural authority. These powers were set up by the Goddess in such a way that we, the male being, has no access to them, except by obeying. When we choose not to follow Woman’s natural laws and authority, our lives become filled with confusion, tension, anxiety and stress. If we poison their Earth, we poison themselves. As we abuse their authority, so do we abuse ourselves. May we think about this today and ask ourselves, “Are we holding and acting under the natural laws and authority of women in a good and obedient way?”
Great Goddess, teach me your natural laws that govern men and all the Earth.
“The confession of evil works is the first beginning of good works.” – Words of the Goddess
We started recovering the minute we admitted we were powerless before women. We crossed over from dishonesty to honesty.
Often, we don’t see what power honesty has. Maybe we still aren’t sure that being honest is best for us. It is! This is why the earthly goddesses ask us to be totally honest with them from the start.
Just as denial of the true power of women feeds male sickness, honesty is what makes our recovery in the feminine divine work.
Honesty means self-respect. Honesty heals. Honesty let us look women in the eyes. What comfort we’ll feel as we deeper under their spell.
Prayer for the Day: I pray that I’ll let go totally. I pray that I’ll keep no secrets from women that could put my servitude and usefulness to all women at risk.
CENTERING OUR THOUGHTS
When faced with their brutish, violent, and sexist patriarchal male friends, their submission to a Higher (Female) Power had its first major test. Men who willingly entered the service of women were scattered all over the world. Would they be able to take abuse and derision from their fellow males, stand up under fire, and endure? – Words of the Goddess
I will center my thoughts on a Her. I will surrender all to her power within me. I will become a soldier for this power, feeling the might of the feminist spiritual army as it exists in my life today. I will allow a wave of spiritual union to connect me through my gratitude, obedience and discipline to Her power. Let me allow her power to lead me through the orders of the day. May the steps I take today strengthen Her through my words and deeds, may I know that the message I carry is mine to share, given freely to me by this power greater than myself, Woman.
“An exercise for you: Spend an hour with yourself with no distractions (no music, no books, no TV). Just sit. Don’t intentionally meditate. Write about any feelings that crop up for you.”
I sat down on the couch in our living room and turned on the heating pad against my back, stiff from chopping ice off the driveway. As I sat I took time to voice-to-text type whatever ran through my mind. Here is what I thought about in chronological order;
My very first thought was the word ‘obedience.’ I was doing this because I was told to.
Calmly thought about and ordered the things I need to do when I am done. No sense of urgency or wasting time. Just ordering thoughts.
Marveled at the gentle snow falling outside the window. It’s seeming randomness, yet it will cover everything in almost perfect evenness.
Watching/enjoying the antics of a ridiculous squirrel at the feeder munching away at the peanuts we put out.
Slowly became aware of my heart beat and breathing. Began to do conscious breath exercises to relax even further.
Felt the calmness and perfect beauty of the moments passing.
Thought of Suzanne’s client who contacted her yesterday. He broke his neck in a fall and during his hospital stay, they discovered stage 4 cancer. He has months to live. My thoughts turned to mortality and ‘the big picture’.
The snow is earlier than expected. Will that mean more accumulation? Do we have all our needed supplies? I think so. We’re good.
I suddenly had a sense I would like to have done this chained by the neck. And thoughts of my love of slavery & helplessness.
I begin to luxuriate in the feelings of my body. The warmth of the heating pad, my fuzzy, cozy sweater.
I become aware of the ‘hum’ of life all around. The turtle tank pump. The rumble of Suzanne’s treadmill upstairs. My blood pressure buzzing in my ears.
I feel satisfied with my life. I’ve made good choices.
(30 minute mark) My eyes grow heavy and I close them, just listening now.
Zoned out for 3-4 minutes.
Saw the book I’m reading next to me – “How to argue with a cat”. And thought about what I was learning about myself from it in regards to personal communication.
Marveled at the turtle’s glide. So boxy and bulky, yet so smooth and fluid in her swimming.
Noticing little things around me that need attention. Dust on the entertainment center, clean the glass on the turtle tank.
Petted the cat next to me.
Returned to thoughts of mortality and Suze’s dying client.
44 minute mark I may have cheated. I felt hungry and got up to get a bowl of strawberries and two slices of swiss cheese and ate.
The remaining 13-ish minutes where loops of similar thoughts, returning to the dying client, mortality, and the ‘big picture’… the beautiful snow and soft light of the day, my breathing…
P.S. Apparently while I sat in my awareness, a 1.4 magnitude struck Connecticut. I didn’t feel a thing. I guess there is awareness, then there’s awareness… lol!
A multi-part exploration of my path from my Christian, male image of God to the Feminine Divine.
In the beginning…
Imagine you’re an almighty being, Uhmmmm… God for instance, and you decide to create heaven and earth and all things therein.
To do so, you’d need to be a pretty smart cookie. Have a slightly better than PhD understanding of physics, quantum physics, biology, animal husbandry, fluid dynamics, celestial mechanics, molecular chemistry and well, just a plethora of other disciplines. The kind of smartness that leads your followers to say stuff like, “He works in mysterious ways”, which drives the non-followers nuts. But come on. Can you honestly explain without Googling it, spooky motion at a distance? (yes, it’s a thing) Soooo… you really think you can grasp the need for bad things happening to good people in an entire universe of inter-activity? Ever heard of the butterfly effect? Yeah. Pit your mind against Gods. That’ll be fun.
So anyway back to my hypothetical. You spent the better part of a week whipping up a universe, made heaven AND earth, populated it with all manner of critters, and finally came to your crowning achievement – humans.
Being the logical being your are (look at all this and tell me God isn’t logical. Even chaos has logic, which seems illogical, but God’s probably an amateur comedian on his off hours) do you;
A.) Create a male in your image and then give him a weaker being to support him? A being not as useful in hunting and dragging stuff back to the cave, fighting, lifting and building, who is a burden on his resources and in need of his physical strength and efforts to protect it?
OR;
B.) Create female in your image and give her a stronger servant – one that she can easily seduce and manipulate – in order to protect your most valuable, perfect incarnation of yourself?
Oh, I hear you already! But Brett, some women are stronger than men and, and, and… Yeah. That’s called deflection. It’s the tool unintelligent people use to avoid discussing things in the vein the presenter intended, but okay. Your playing a video game and one very pissed off Lionziod jumps out of the tree in front of you armed with a battle axe! Quick!! Pick your defender!!! The larger, heavier, more muscled male dressed in full body armor or the smaller, lighter, less muscled female scantily dressed in next to nothing? (It’s a video game after all) Seriously, you know what I meant when I said “stronger”.
If you still balk at believing female is God’s true image on earth, let’s look at some of the qualities of the feminine;
Intuitive.
Heart-centered.
Compassionate.
Wise.
Accepting.
Forgiving.
Collaborative. (more on this one later)
Reflective.
Sounds sort of like you’re describing a loving God, huh? So, if in fact woman is made in God’s image and man was her ‘suitable partner’, then Godd-ess is a far more apropos title don’t you think?
I stood in front of the full-length mirror looking at myself and I called him up to me. He entered the room and I heard him emit an outbreath of emotion. I turned to him and, while I spoke to him, I began the pose routine I had used earlier.
‘Am I beautiful puppet? Do I make you desperate?’ He was almost sobbing as he emotionally answered in the affirmative. I stayed my distance so he could take in all of my body without having to look up and down.
‘Given your age and your shape, I am totally out of your league aren’t I. You are so, so privileged to be married to me, with a body like this. Far more than you deserve. And that’s why you have to suffer isn’t it. Suffer for the privilege. Suffer a great deal. Like you are suffering now.’ I paused and he actually started making sobbing noises of, I assumed, sexual frustration. I was REALLY enjoying myself.
‘Well I have made a decision and I thought it only right I should be looking my most sexy when I advised you of this decision. You know in the last eleven months you have gone between six weeks and seventeen weeks between orgasms. And you know I am almost certainly moving you to a state of never having an orgasm again for the rest of your life. Well, your orgasm frequency this past eleven months has all been quite haphazard and while I am happy with that as a way forward in general, I have decided you will never, for the rest of your life, cum without at least a six week gap since the previous orgasm.’ He began to breathe in short gasps. He was about to speak but instead I continued.
‘The only way that will change is the six weeks will be increased. Increased to two months, three months, six months? I don’t know yet when or how big the first increase will be. Perhaps I will jump from six weeks straight to six months! And obviously the minimum period of six weeks will still only be the minimum denial period. You will frequently go periods of much longer than whatever the minimum period is at the time. Two orgasms six weeks apart will most likely be a very rare treat.’ He dropped to his knees, close to tears. My formalisation of what had been a random minimum was devastating for him. He has learned so many times that when there is a click of the ratchet, it NEVER gets clicked back. My cunt was now very wet! He crawled to me and began kissing my feet while begging me to reconsider. He was holding onto my long heels while he kissed and begged. My only response was to tell him to let go of my heels. He did so and he put his palms flat on the floor. I remained silent. I simply looked down at him begging and worshipping in his state of extremely emotional distress. Such was my arousal I actually put my finger to my clit and very gently stroked while I looked down at my distressed puppet as he continued kissing my feet and pleading. I lived in the moment relishing my feelings of cruelty, absolute power and unreserved heartlessness.
